while here, he was excluded from my dreams

while here, he was excluded from my dreams,
I had preferred the days before he came,
now gone, I reach for him in wishful dreams,

nine years alone, I had no friends, it seemed
my folks gave me a friend who shared my name,
while here, he was excluded from my dreams,

I'd found new friends, no need for more, i deemed
him just unnecessary for my games,
now gone, I reach for him in wishful dreams,

regret my childish child in painful screams,
how could I've known I'd feel such nagging shame?
while here, he was excluded from my dreams,

I'd much preferred a sister, folly gleams,
exposed in sunlight's view as it is tamed,
now gone, I reach for him in wishful dreams,

none can undo what's done, and so it seems,
I'm left with extra space to flog my brain,
while here, he was excluded from my dreams,
now gone, I reach for him in wishful dreams.

(C)2008, Christos Rigakos